Somewhere in the middle of all the fun I received unpleasant news about my PAP smear - which is the annual test women need to check for cervical cancer. There were abnormal cells - so I would need to have them scraped away. Sound like fun? Yet another trip in the stirrups with something else put inside "you know where". Another "twinge" and more "slight cramping". I feel like I could walk around any medical office naked from the waist down and not even care......
Oh, but there's more. The "scraping" did not get everything - so I got to have what is called a LEEP procedure. I go in and get into the stirrups again, only this time the nurse attaches something to my leg. When I ask what it is - she says "that is to ground you." Because the LEEP procedure is when the doctor uses ELECTRICAL CURRENT to zap away at the bad cells on the cervix. Really? I am crying as this goes on - I can smell burning and seem to feel it all.
By 2006 I also realized that everything was taking a toll. I was crying for no reason, sleeping a lot during the day, and losing interest in things I enjoyed - working out, spending time with friends, and my Silpada business. It took me a while to realize that I needed help - I thought there was something wrong with me. I was diagnosed with mild depression and enxiety. I started some therapy and started on Zoloft.
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